August 27
The Seraphic Teresa’s Wound Of Love
Preparation. - The Church has permitted several religious institutes to celebrate the memory of this signal favor. We shall consider its two great effects on the saint: in the first place, a total detachment from all that is not God, and secondly, a sincere love of suffering. Thus we shall enkindle in us the desire of watching over our affections, and of peacefully accepting the trials of this life, so that God may ever be our only treasure, our only love. “the God of my heart and the God that is my portion forever” (Ps. 72. 26).
I. The Detachment Produced In St. Teresa By The Wound Of Love
St. Teresa relates that a seraph several times appeared to her and pierced her heart with a flaming dart. The first effect of her wound was to detach her wholly from all but the supreme Good. “I was as if stunned,” she writes, “and would have wished no longer to see or speak, but only to be entirely absorbed in that delightful pain, whence I derived more contentment and joy than from all created goods.”
And, in fact, do we not find every thing in God: science, glory, riches, and the purest and sweetest pleasures? Truly could our saint exclaim with David: “What have I in heaven, and besides Thee what do I desire upon earth? ... Thou art the God of my heart, and the God that is my portion forever.” And indeed nothing in the world can captivate the desires of him who possesses the infinite Good and is wounded with His love. We ought, like the saints, to direct all our aspirations towards the God who inebriates with delights the angels and the elect; we should then enjoy already in our exile a foretaste of the joys of our heavenly country.
The worldling who has been keenly hurt in his honor or reputation, cannot forget the wound that makes his heart bleed; it occupies all his thoughts, and he speaks of it at every opportunity. Such was the state of the Seraphic Teresa; God absorbed her; in Him alone she concentrated all her desires and affections, so that for her there was no attraction, no pleasure, but the supreme and eternal God. Oh, were the Lord to pierce us with one of His divine darts, that is, with the rays of His grace, how we should be filled with His love! At our meals, in our walks, at our work the sweet remembrance of our God, ever present in our soul and conferring favors on us, would never leave us; by day and by night, like our saint, we would speak affectionately to Him in order to testify to Him our gratitude and love.
O my sovereign Good, do not allow my heart, created for Thee alone, to seek any longer what flatters, amuses or pleases it on earth. Detach it from every gratification, and enkindle it with the desire to love Thee as the most ardent seraphim love Thee. Wound my soul at mental prayer and remove from it every remembrance, every affection, that tends not to Thee, the God of my heart, the God that is my portion forever.
II. The Seraphic Teresa’s Love Of Suffering
The pain caused by the seraph’s fiery dart was so keen that our saint could not keep back plaintive cries. “ But,” she adds, “love predominated over the pain;” and she would not have wished o be freed therefrom, so delicious it seemed to be to her. Such is the fruit of perfect charity; it sweetens all bitterness. Had we but a spark of it, would we have such a horror of all that is opposed to our inclinations?
In fact, how can we love a crucified God without loving the cross? “Do you imagine,” said our Lord to Teresa, “that merit consists in enjoyment? No; it consists in working, suffering and loving.” Suffering is, as it were, inseparable from love, for Jesus crucified testified His boundless love for us chiefly by suffering and dying for us. Wishing to contract the most sublime union with Teresa, He showed her on of the nails wherewith He had been nailed to the cross, saying: “This is the mark and pledge that thou art henceforth My Spouse.” Therefore our union with Jesus is sanctified by means of suffering. The wood of the cross must keep up and increase in us the fire of divine love.
Have we hitherto grasped this doctrine, we who wish always to enjoy and never have any thing to bear? That there may be room in us for divine love, we must necessarily banish from our heart pride, sensuality, and all vice and defects. But how can we secure such a result, without denying and mortifying ourselves, without patiently bearing contradictions, hardships, infirmities and all the little trials strewn over our daily life? Great trials, which rarely occur, are usually well accepted only by the souls accustomed peacefully to carry their daily cross.
Let us examine whether we are patient, first, when our feelings are hurt, when we are contradicted, interrupted in our occupations, or overloaded with work; and secondly, when accidents, disappointments, shock us, or upset our plans and projects. Are not all these and similar occasions providential means leading us to perfect love, which consists, according to St. Teresa, “in making our will one with the will of God.”
“O Love,” I say to Thee with her, “Thou who loves me more than I can conceive, dispose my soul to serve Thee as Thou pleasest and not as I please. May all selfishness die in me, so that Thou mayst live in me, and give me life, and reign over me, and make me Thy slave, for I wish for no other freedom.”